Cancer

As I posted on the Facebook yesterday, my three year cancer followup revealed three enlarged lymph nodes.  The blood test did not show any elevated cancer markers, so I don't have to start chemo right away.  Instead, my surveillance regimen is CT scans every three months for the foreseeable future.  First of those in December.    If something looks worrying then or in subsequent scans, *then* I start chemo.

Friends on facebook have taken the positive blood results as "great news" and have mostly reacted as if I'm going to be okay.  Which, maybe I am.  But I don't feel the weight lifted yet.  The CT scans are very unfun, and I've got a bad feeling about the results.  It feels like I've only put off the chemo for 3 or 6 months.

I don't want to be Eeyoring myself, but cancer is a thing.