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Monday the oncologist called. She talked to a testicular cancer specialist (it's rare, so testicular cancer oncologists are rare) who recommended that, rather than do a CT scan in three months, I should get my lymph node(s) biopsied.  So that's what I will be doing Tuesday.  7 am check-in. Procedure at 8 am. 2 hours sedated. Then 1-2 hours recovery at Group Health before they discharge me.

Kim will be accompanying me there. Heather will be picking me up.

I'd kind of rather just take the bus home, but that's not allowed. I also don't know how long it will take before the biopsy test results will be done.

Cancer

Sep. 19th, 2019 04:58 pm
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As I posted on the Facebook yesterday, my three year cancer followup revealed three enlarged lymph nodes.  The blood test did not show any elevated cancer markers, so I don't have to start chemo right away.  Instead, my surveillance regimen is CT scans every three months for the foreseeable future.  First of those in December.    If something looks worrying then or in subsequent scans, *then* I start chemo.

Friends on facebook have taken the positive blood results as "great news" and have mostly reacted as if I'm going to be okay.  Which, maybe I am.  But I don't feel the weight lifted yet.  The CT scans are very unfun, and I've got a bad feeling about the results.  It feels like I've only put off the chemo for 3 or 6 months.

I don't want to be Eeyoring myself, but cancer is a thing.
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There's a genealogy convention in May that I want to go to, but I can't talk myself into pulling the trigger. This is the same thing that I did from 2010-2013 when I didn't have an earned income.  I can't bring myself to spend money that I have on things I want to do, because what if I need that money when I am 80.  I don't have kids to take care of me then.
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Kim and I watched S2E2-4 of the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel yesterday.  I really love this show.  I love watching Tony Shalhoub and Rachel Brosnahan just take over every scene they are in.  One of these days I'm going to have to pull out my DVDs of Monk so I can watch Tony Shalhoub again.

I also made Brunswick Stew for the both of us.  I've been making an effort to cook from scratch again.  That's partially for health reasons, partially for cost reasons (less eating out) and partially for fighting off depression. The recipe I have makes a *lot* of stew, and now I've got enough to feed me for a week.  I also bought the stuffs to make Hoppin' John for New Year's Day.

Our plans for New Year's Eve are to again celebrate at the Swedish Club.  Decent music, and there's no pressure to stay long after midnight.  I am getting to the age where I am *done* at midnight.
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I just returned from a week in San Francisco, where I intended to relax at my brother's house and catch some of the LitQuake events.

Unfortunately, Saturday I started feeling pretty bad pain in my lower right abdomen.  By Sunday it was really bad, and my googling of symptoms said "appendicitis, surgery probable".  So I went to the Sutter Health ER.  Four hours and a CT scan later, diagnosed with epiploic appendagitis.  Basically there's some fatty tissue around the appendix that gets twisted around, and pain!  Not appendicitis though.  This cures itself after 3-4 days.  So I left with some painkillers.

But that pretty much meant I was laying up in the house until Wednesday. I did catch the Nasty Women reading event at Bookshop West Portal last night, so the week wasn't a complete bust.
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 This spring, I decided I was finally ready for a cat in the house again, five years after Guinevere died. She was in the neighborhood of 18-21 years old, depending on which estimate from the Humane Society I believed. I had her for 13 years.

It took me three visits to PAWS in the U District to find a cat who fit the bill: no major personalities issues, relatively friendly short hair. He loved being petted and skritched while I was there. So I adopted him.

Got him home. He immediately hid. After a month being moved around foster places and shelters, so I figured he might take a few days to get accustomed to my apartment. He never did. He pretty much only came out at night and when the Roomba vacuumed his hiding spot under the couch. He'd freak out a bit then, but would let me hold him and would calm down after about 15 minutes. But once I set him down he immediately went back to hiding.

I named him Steve Your Asshole Buddy because he yowled a lot at night.

I posted about him a few times to a private filter on Facebook, figuring once he got more comfortable I'd start posting pictures and whatnot more publicly.

That never happened. Thursday night he freaked out, came out from under the couch, but still wouldn't let me near him. Dragged his left hind leg, and had a bunch of other symptoms I don't want to go into because I don't want to write about an animal in distress.

Heather came over and helped me corral him into a carrier, then took me to an emergency vet. They diagnosed him with a heart condition and he died.

 
I'm a little sad this didn't work out, but I didn't have Steve long enough to hit me super hard.  I have a couple of trips coming up, so it doesn't make sense to adopt again until the traveling is done.  Soon though.
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It's been five years since I put Guinevere to sleep. Felt I was ready for a cat again, so went up to PAWS Cat City to visit cats for adoption on Monday. Sadly, none of the three available for adoption were right for me. I was originally going to check out a couple of different places on Monday, but they weren't open for adoptions then. Anyway, I'll go back next week and see who is there.
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Finally had my oncologist appointment to go over my CT scan results. As thought, no signs there of cancer there. Oncologist futzed over lots of other items in the scan and in my bloodwork, but none of them are cancer. It's more like your hypochondriac uncle who's also a doctor. Kinda odd. My pulse was high. I have a pocket of fluid. I sometimes don't sleep too well. No cancer, which is the important thing.

I was pretty sure my next CT scan according to the schedule I was given was to be in September. Doc said we'll skip the June one and go straight to September. Now I'm a bit worried that what he told me the protocol would be in September is not what he's saying now. Not that he is modifying it. But that what he says the protocol is changes. He's supposed to be the expert in this protocol. Have verified the change with the copy of the protocol I scanned from September.

Alzheimers

May. 4th, 2017 10:10 pm
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The mother of my a high school classmate died from Alzheimers this afternoon during the middle of the thunderstorms that passed through the area.

I am so sad for her, but I also expect her family is relieved that Marilyn isn't suffering anymore.

Watching a video Nancy took earlier today of her mother having a slightly lucid moment and singing with those in the room was heartbreaking. It took me back to when Mom and Gram died. Mom had her mind but not her body. Gram's Alzheimers had taken her mind. And I was relieved both times by the time they died. For them and not having to suffer, and for me in the hopes that my images of them would finally start to be restored to them in better days.

I can't think of them even today without the images of them suffering, though it doesn't completely drown the good memories anymore. I hope Nancy has a better experience than I did.

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Oncologist office called to do a pre-checkin today for my appointment next week. Primarily they wanted to get my insurance information. I still don't have that from Regence. Definitely means that any money I pay toward April will be wasted.
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When I put in my notice at the last job, I assumed my insurance would carry through to the end of the month. I had an CT scan scheduled for my last day (a Friday), and the related oncologist appointment for the following Tuesday. In my exit interview at 1 pm on that Friday, I was informed that my insurance got cut off at midnight. I hadn't read the documentation I was sent two days earlier closely enough.

So I scrambled to apply for insurance that day, rather than do it the following Monday as I'd planned. Got on WAHealthPlanFinder, put in my info, including that my last day of coverage was 3/24. Picked a plan. Got confirmation that night that I was approved and that I should call the insurance company (Regence) or go to their web site to pay. Start date 4/1.

Called the oncologist on Monday and delayed my appointment for a week. Called Regence to find out how to pay. They had no record of me. CSR said it took a couple of days to get in the system. That's fine. I expect these things.

I get "secure email" from Regence on 4/3 saying they need a letter from my employer before they can approve my insurance, deadline 4/10. I submit it online the same day. Within the hour. On 4/5, having heard nothing, I emailed Regence asking what's up. I get a non-committal response. There'll be a new deadline if that doesn't suffice.

On 4/10, having heard nothing I call my oncologist and delay the appointment until May.

On 4/11, I get a request for a document from my previous insurance, deadline for submission 4/25. Letter from the employer wasn't good enough. Note that this is the day after the previous deadline. I immediately call Cigna, the previous insurance. The document from them arrives on 4/17, and I submit it online that day.

On 4/26 (the day after the deadline), having not heard from them and starting to worry, I call the underwriting department. They say they've approved it and I need to call the exchange to arrange payment. Payment goes through Regence anyway. So I call the exchange, they have no record of the approval and as far as they are concerned, it was approved on 3/25. I need to talk to Regence. So I call Regence again, the regular line this time thinking it's out of underwriting's hands. But the CSR just transfers me to underwriting. This time the underwriting person tells me the application was approved this morning at 10:36, but that there's nothing they can do on their end to speed of processing any more. Later in the call, she tells me because it's an exchange based policy, it will take 4 days to get the paperwork transmitted back to the exchange, rather than the normal two. This means that the earliest I would actually have insurance is the last day of the fucking month, but I'd have to pay for the entire month. But even that's unlikely because after the exchange gets it the information has to be put back into Regence' system for payment and then to send me my insurance card. So I won't be insured until May at least, but I'll have to pay for April.

And no guarantee that all this paperwork will be processed before my appointment.

So, frustrated, I file a complaint with the Washington Insurance Commissioner, explaining all this. Total delay that I'm responsible for is a few hours. Total delay due to Cigna is 6 days. Total delay due to Regence (and possibly some due to the Washington insurance exchange) is 27 days. So far. I request:

  • A refund of any premiums I have to pay for April.
  • That Regence word its document requests so that everything can be submitted in one shot, with requirements understandable to people who aren't insurance terminology geeks.
  • That Regence staff its underwriting department sufficient that paperwork processing happens in a timely fashion rather than the day after deadlines.
  • A pony

I tweet the previous bit out too, tagging the Regence Twitter handle. That person wants my info and I'm reluctant to give it, having been on the phone for an hour today already. However, about an hour later she's on the line with me and with the exchange at the same time, and the exchange is putting in a ticket to change my start date to 5/1. With the Regence person on the line, she doesn't think there will be any problem approving it. It would have required me putting a request in to Regence and paperwork being sent back and forth without that. I also recorded all this portion. Thank you Google Voice! It'll probably mean I get one set of insurance cards for a start date of 4/1, and a second set with a start date of 5/1.

I'd rather have gotten the insurance processed in a timely fashion, and my oncologist appointment not delayed for a month. But it's better than nothing. And I still want them to rewrite their requests and staff the hell up. I doubt the insurance commissioner will order that however. Still, I hope Regence has to at least spend some cycles on responding to those parts of the request.

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I just finished scanning and filing my bills and correspondence and statements and whatnot from December and January.

I note this because I have historically been very bad at keeping up with this sort of thing, to my detriment.  At times, I've had half-decade old unopened mail and years-old paperwork that needed to be handled (not just filed).  It's an anxiety thing. I can't deal with it, so it got stuck in a box, thinking I'd be able to deal with it the next week.  But then the amount of stuff in the box and the length of time it had been in there made it even harder to deal with.

This is why I have had to deal with the IRS twice and the State of Idaho once.

I've been better in the last few years, but stuff still piled up.

Since moving to mostly paperless storage last year, 2 months is about the longest I've gone without filing.  And I've had nothing older than a couple of weeks that needed to be dealt with. Only one bill has been paid late, and that's just because I forgot to enter it into my bill pay.

It's only been one year, so I don't want to declare victory.  But I am feeling celebratory at finding a method to deal with one of my neuroses.
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I'm mostly taking a break from posting to Facebook.  Don't hate it, and I'm still using it.  Just not posting.  Trying out some different ways of using it to see if they are better for my well-being.  Right now I'm mosting commenting only, and I did post a couple of Christmas messages.  I'm not even sure why I'm doing this or what I hope will happen.  I just know that I have been increasingly depressed lately over my relationships with people, and that's where a lot of my relationships happen. So if I'm going to change things, I need to change the 80%, not fiddle at the edges. Again, it's not Facebook itself so don't irritate me with anti-Facebook comments.  I get it, people hate Facebook. In this case, I mostly hate me.
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As the Facebook people know, tomorrow I am off to Copenhagen, Stockholm, and several other places in their countries.  I am 90% packed. My electronics are charging.  I've only minor things left to do like purchase a couple more ebooks to load up on my reader (I'm not sure my ebook stores will sell if my IP is not American) and get some emergency cash to bring with.

I'm bringing my laptop, so I will be updating Facebook and possibly here.  Photos may wait until I return to get posted, depending on down time and internet speeds.

Little known fact about me: traveling anywhere alone except the US and Canada scares the hell out of me.  I'm sure I'll be fine, but I am still filled with dread.

Weight

Jun. 27th, 2015 10:28 pm
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I would like to know how I can go to California for a week, sweat my butt off, walk over an hour a day more than I do here, limit my meals to something much smaller than I do here, and come back weight a pound more than when I left.
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Earlier this year I let myself get talked into filling out the term on the condo association board of someone who bailed.  Tonight was the annual owners meeting, and now I'm on the board for another two years.  Afterward, the board decided I would be vice-president and head of the architecture review committee..  That means if anyone wants to do a remodel, I get to be the person who deals with them on behalf of the board.

In the mid-90s, I was the chair or vice-chair of several different committees for a non-profit.  I hope the experience is more enjoyable this time around.  I've got my what-have-I-done face on right now.

Vacation

May. 8th, 2015 05:17 pm
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Talked to a travel agent to get my first international trip since 2005 going. I'm going to visit Denmark and Sweden, including where my ancestors are from, Langelands and PiteƄ. Tentatively looking at August or September for 2-3 weeks.

Battery

Mar. 25th, 2015 10:27 pm
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I was battered today for the first time since 2005.  First time from a stranger too.

A woman arrived at my bus stop about the same time as me, and at first I thought she was arguing with someone on the phone.  But you know where I'm going with that.  She was actually having an incoherent argument with an invisible person.  For 20 minutes or so.  I mostly ignored it, as this is the city.  Just looked up occasionally as I was texting back and forth with Erin.

Suddenly, she looked at me then threw her bottle of VitaminWater at me, hard.  It hit me in the knee pretty good and drenched my pants and shoes.  Then she glared at me for a few moments, never breaking conversational stride with whoever she was arguing with.  I dialed 911 but didn't hit send, held up the phone and told her to go find another bus stop or she'd have to deal with the cops.  She looked angry and walked about 20 feet away and then stopped. I yelled at her to continue on and then she did.

I had one flash of anger right after I was hit, but that dissipated really quickly.  I'm not really sure what the best course of action is for such situations, but I wanted to both be somewhat compassionate and be firm and safe at the same time.
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It’s been years since I got to participate in a 401(k) retirement plan. Last time was when I worked at Expedia. I put the amount in that would maximize the employer contribution and didn’t pay much more attention. The first thing I looked at this time was which investment options were index funds. There’s one index fund option for large-cap funds and one for small-cap funds. Out of 24 options, only two are index funds. That’s deplorable. To illustrate why, I dug around to find the expense ratios for the fund options. It wasn’t as easy to find as I would like, but when I did Fidelity showed it quite nicely.
Name Category Gross Expense Ratio Shareholder Fees
COMPANY STOCK Company Stock Commission on stock trades: $0.029 per share
MAINSTAY LGCP GR R1 (MLRRX) Large Cap 0.87% No additional fees apply.
MFS VALUE R4 (MEIJX) Large Cap 0.68% No additional fees apply.
SPTN 500 INDEX INST (FXSIX) Large Cap 0.05% No additional fees apply.
ARTISAN MID CAP INST (APHMX) Mid-Cap 1.03% No additional fees apply.
ARTISAN SM CAP VALUE (ARTVX) Small Cap 1.24% No additional fees apply.
VANG SM GR IDX INST (VSGIX) Small Cap 0.08% No additional fees apply.
FID DIVERSIFD INTL K (FDIKX) International 0.81% Short term trading fees of 1% for shares held less than 30 days.
DODGE & COX BALANCED (DODBX) Blended Fund 0.53% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2005 (FFKVX) Blended Fund 0.50% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2010 (FFKCX) Blended Fund 0.54% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2015 (FKVFX) Blended Fund 0.57% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2020 (FFKDX) Blended Fund 0.59% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2025 (FKTWX) Blended Fund 0.62% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2030 (FFKEX) Blended Fund 0.67% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2035 (FKTHX) Blended Fund 0.68% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2040 (FFKFX) Blended Fund 0.68% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2045 (FFKGX) Blended Fund 0.69% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2050 (FFKHX) Blended Fund 0.69% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K 2055 (FDENX) Blended Fund 0.69% No additional fees apply.
FID FREEDOM K INCOME (FFKAX) Blended Fund 0.45% No additional fees apply.
MIP II CL 1 Bond Investments 0.56% No additional fees apply.
PIM TOTAL RT INST (PTTRX) Bond Investments 0.46% No additional fees apply.

I’ve highlighted the index fund for large-cap and the option with the next lowest expense ratio, and the same for the small-cap index fund. Those percentages indicate the amount the fund managers skim off the top every year. As a retirement saver, you never even see it because they don’t list this percentage in how much you make. They could do this (examples use a 1% expense ratio for arithmetic convenience):

Investment  $10,000
Increase$500
Fee-$105
Total$10,395

Instead, they do this:

Investment  $10,000
Increase$395
Total$10,395

Notice in my example, the fee is a percentage of the total, not of the increase. An average fund manager might make the investor $500. An extraordinary fund manager might make $700. The average fund manager charges $105. The extra-ordinary one charges $107. Now, you might think you are getting a steal of $200 for only $2 more, but the real travesty is that the average manager gets $100 for very little work. To see that, look at an index fund.

The small-cap index fund I highlighted uses CRSP US Small Cap Growth Index to benchmark. Compared against their own benchmark, they lose over the last three months but just barely: return of 1.58% vs. the benchmark return of 1.6%. They compare very closely because all an index fund does is buy exactly what’s in the index.

For comparison, the actively managed fund uses Russell 2000 Value as it’s benchmark index. Compared against that, the managers lost 0.28% vs. the index’s gain of 1.78%. These managers are trying to beat the index by picking better investments than the index, charging for their “expertise”, and losing.

Now, that’s a short period of time and perhaps at other times the actively managed fund does better. But over time, index funds have better returns than actively managed funds. There are exceptions, but those options aren’t pertinent to the broad market investments that are available in a 401(k).

So basically, those investment options I have? I’m giving away $60 (for the large cap fund) to $115 (on the small cap fund) every year for nothing (on a baseline portfolio of $10,000). If I’m saving money every year for retirement, that amount grows every year, and cuts into the compounded interest every year.

All of this stuff is pretty well written about all over, but regular people don’t pay attention for a variety of reasons. I’m not naming my employer here, but they really should be doing better by their employees.

Originally published at King Rat. You can comment here or there.

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A gave myself a couple of tasks to accomplish yesterday before the second session of my genealogy class. The first was to pick up the class packet from the copy center. The second was to pick up a Husky Card for access to the U.W. libraries. Both went swimmingly, so I got to my class early, hung out and read the text book.

The class was taught by James Rigali today. He’s the instructor for the history portions of the class. Topic was Organizing Historical Research Projects. After an overly long and fairly unimportant discussion of what is history? he delved into a basic method he wanted us to follow:

  • Pick a subject. At this point, I’m thinking of doing my project on either or both of my third great grandparents, Patrick Parker and Mary Murphy. (I’ve written about them on the blog before.)
  • Create an annotated chronology
  • Develop research questions, both historical and genealogical
  • Develop a bibliography. His overview included the following types of sources:
    • General books, including textbooks.
    • Scholarly articles (JSTOR)
    • Encyclopedias (he didn’t cover this one too much)
    • Historical books and magazines published at the time
    • Local histories
    • Historical maps
    • Historical photographs.
    • Newspapers of the time
    • History web sites
  • Sample Research Journal
    Sample Research Journal
    Keep a research journal. He didn’t really cover what to record on this, other than keeping what he called a two-sided journal. In other words, record what you are searching and reading on one side, and notes and thoughts on the other. He didn’t really seem like he’s embraced computer technology like I do.

Originally published at King Rat. You can comment here or there.

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